Dear Love,
It has been a minute hasn't it?! So much has happened. So much has changed. You've changed, I've changed, so much has healed and so much has been revelaed about what needs to be healed next. This is the heart and center space of personal evolution for all those willing to get their hands in the clay of their lives. I am jumping from moments of intense personal clarity to feeling completely clouded. I am writing down a million plans and then throwing them out the next minute. Everything is in motion and I am doing all I can to keep up with it. There is a time to go with the flow and there is a time to be the river itself. Sometimes you need to be a little of both. I am in the middle of a huge shift, way bigger than I anticipated it to be. I have questioned whether to ever open my business back up, whether to leave this city and plant my life somewhere else, whether to go back to University, go travelling, open my own coffee shop or a million other things. It's all been on the table. I sometimes want to throw myself at every thing I've ever tried to see if I can find a piece of myself there and sometimes I want to retreat to a small cottage in west wales and just run away for a few decades! I am searching, seeking, creating light from fragments of who I was in order to stand in who I am.
And that's the question. Who am I now? Who are YOU now? I truly believe that the core of who you are never changes we just go through experiences that point us toward who we have always been. Underneath it all. You've always, on some level I believe, known your own truth even if you've not been ready to stand in that. So the question is, who have I always been? Who have you always been? And don't confuse that question with “What have you always done?”. One of those questions is about unfolding and one is all about habit. Who I am and what I am are seperate things. Who I am and what I have done, also seperate. Who I am and what am I becoming? Now that's a spiritual dance I am interested in.
The spirits have been almost silent around me for months. I welcomed the break initially but after a while it became a little unnerving and then, the night before last the chatter began again. I lay in bed half asleep and old relatives of mine and Stu's started to turn up and share their wisdom. It was beautiful, gentle and an insight into what's coming next. I feel spiritually and psychically different, clearer, gentler. I don't have all the details worked out yet but I am excited to see how that's going to play out when I start back work. I feel like my spiritual insight has become “more” even though I don't know what that means yet.
Rebirth after rebirth after rebirth. Today's full moon definitely has brought with it a chance to get a glimpse of where I am changing. Tonight I will sit with candles and call forward my inner light. What kind of medium have I grown into? What kind of empath have I evolved into? What flavour of creator am I sat amongst and, who is the man in the middle of all of this? These questions scare a lot of people but they've always excited me. I guess because they are nothing to do with the future and are so rooted in the present moment. We've all been through a lot of changes this year and there are so many more to come. The invitation here is to become more of yourself. The change has already happened. You've already started to shift towards something greater, it's just whether you go willingly or not.
Right now I think it's about embracing the uncertaintly and the absolute truth. Create a new life for yourself and do with the knowledge that you might throw the whole thing out next week and start again. This is a time to do the big creating, the deep inner work. Use tonights full moon to gather your angels, your spiritual family and sink into the deliciousness of the new you, even if you don't have all of what that means figured out yet.
Be willing to be new and then be willing to be new again. Populate your new life with the truest most beautiful you that you can find today.
I love you much.
Big Love,
Ryan James x
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