My life is a never ending roller coaster of weird. For instance, yesterday I had a low level headache all day. Not a real surprise my first week back of readings after a long stretch of relaxation, it was made slightly worse by having a scrape and polish at the dentist and my dad was decorating my bedroom so all the furniture had to be moved out and into my readings room and then back out of the readings room ready for more clients Friday. So last night as I was about to fall asleep all of my healing guides turned up to work on me. I was laying there dozing off as a native american, a buddhist healer and an old country witch worked my energy back into balance. I couldn't help but smile as I felt my body and spirit being manipulated into synchronicity. Toxins are being burned out of my system plus an easier flow of energy is being “allowed” through my system. A deep feeling of ease has been running through my energy for about a month and I think I have to climatise to it whilst handling a new level of work. I have slightly increased the amount of readings I'm doing in an effort to bring down my waiting list but I refuse to compromise quality. So, a less exhausting way is being opened up to me.
Even with my headache, the interruptions and the bustle of life that happened yesterday I still chose to feel good. I still chose to work with what I had in front of me and make the best of it. This pervasive goodness that seems to be erupting to the surface of my life at the moment is easily accessible and is helping me shift that feeling of “heavyness” that often accompanies psychics. I feel like the energetic “free radicals” are washing off me a lot more easily the more I connect to the this feeling. I've been working on uprooting the many ways in which fear shows itself in my life and one of those expressions is definitely perfectionism. I am constantly looking for the most productive way to exact my purpose on the planet whilst also making room to enjoy myself and this ease seems to be the dominant feeling of letting it all go. Before I went on holiday I came across a habit of keeping psychic energy at arms length in my life. I developed it at a time when I was scared and resistant towards being a psychic and even though on the surface I have completely embraced it as my path I think that residual habit from that time was still playing itself out in my subconscious. Since surrendering it I have had easier access to the energies around me.
It's strange how fear can make us operate within our lives. Even when we don't feel scared or hurt on a conscious level sometimes the experiences we have had can create habits that we become so climatised to that they get over looked. A deep lack of trust because of an old betrayal, a work a holic tendancy left over from a need for approval, these are just a few things I've had to not only heal but also actively work towards surrendering the habits born out of these experiences. The good thing about good feelings and choosing to feel good no matter what is around you is that you will inevitably brush up against the habits that are holding you back. Yesterday it would have been so easy for me to just write the day off but instead I hugged my dog, cleaned up what needed doing and spent an evening with my Fiance watching crap on telly. I made the most out of what was available to me. I didn't let old habits or fear win, I allowed myself to feel them and in doing so gave myself the option to fully surrender. I am excited to see what else comes up as a result of this new found lack of resistance. Each time I let go at a deeper level I open myself to a whole new playground of joy. What fears are holding you back? In which form does fear turn up in your life? What habits do you have that are based in resistance? How are you self sabotaging? What makes you instantly happy? Sink your teeth into that today and see what comes up!
Thank you,
Big Love,
Ryan James x
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