So last night one of my absolute pet peeves happened. I was sat with a client and just as I was about to connect with spirit, boom, my mind shuts down. I don't really know how else to describe it other than it's like there's switch that just goes off and all of a sudden I can't hear spirit any more. It's strange because my readings lately have been even more clear than usual. This has happened before so I'm not too overwhelmed by it it's just weird. I HATE having to send clients home, especially now that so many of you wait 6 to 8 months for a reading. Waking up this morning and the voices still aren't there. I guess it goes to show just how busy my mind is on a day to day level. I also have a sore throat, I'm feeling chesty and my head is hurting a bit so I think the bug that Stu has had for the last week might have caught up with me. I plan to reiki and heal seven shades of crap out of myself this afternoon after I run some errands later. If you are a reiki healer then please feel free to send a little love my way it will be deeply appreciated! On a positive note the silence of my mind this morning is obviously necessary for something, the last time this happened I had burned myself out but I don't feel that's the same this time. I just feel like there is a little something else that needs healing within my psychic energy or that something is re balancing itself.
A few days ago my auntie in spirit came to me and said that my energies were changing and being “refined” as a result of me recognising and releasing the habitual resistance I adopted early on towards being a psychic. I imagine this is all part of that. I did have a brief moment of panic ( and also if I'm honest a brief tantrum ) last night when the voices stopped because normally when I go through transition they are there to guide me and for a moment I wondered what I would do for a living if I wasn't a psychic by trade. I've contemplated this before, I might open a dog friendly cafe, or sell art, or try and make money writing books, I'm not sure. It would be fun to try something new but I know full well that doing spiritual work will be a consistent part of my life's experience. I tried running from it in my twenties and no matter where I went it turned up. My relationship with my spiritual work has been a bumpy one and it's taken me a while to make peace with it. I know that in some areas I still have a way to go but each year I am growing into a newer, brighter and more trusting version of myself. I am sometimes learning, sometimes relearning what it means to have what I have and during times like this, when my mind is completely silent I regain a deep appreciation for it.
One of the fascinating things about psychic energy is it's capacity to evolve. As human consciouness changes so does the nature of the mystics within it. I can feel newer and brighter things happening within me I just can't hear them! Like the time I found myself able to read into the human body or the time I found myself able to see past lives I wonder what this will bring. I'll keep you updated as I go along but for now I am going to revel in the brief moment of quiet. For a day or two I get to plod along for a bit and just get my body back into balance. I am excited by it all and also a little nervous. Changes happen to all of us all the time and we really do have no other choice than to trust the process. We like to idea of co creating our lives right up until the moments when the “co” part of that creation kicks in and the Universe takes over. So for today I am going to do what I often tell you to do, I am going to sit back, relax and enjoy what's in front of me!
Thank you,
Big Love,
Ryan James x
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